Monday, November 19, 2012

The Last Barn On Winsor Avenue






The Last Barn On Winsor Avenue


Wind howled through the cold bright morning as I forced my eyes awake to stare at what seems like a plain white celling. I have slept long and wel, I procrastinated to myself; in fact, I could barely recall my past at all. As I twitched my hand to the side, a loud scream came up near me. “ He’s awake! Doctor, he’s alive!” I can hear someone banging through the door as footsteps came closer to me.

“Hello, I’m José, your doctor. You’ve been asleep for a while now and most patients don’t wake up that fast from a head injury. We couldn’t find any identifications on you. Do you remember your name?”
            
            “My Name is Alan, Alan Jones,“ I answered.

Everything around me seemed so dizzy as the doctor aided me up on the white bed. What happened to me, and why was I here? Unanswered questions flooded through my head like a game of clue. 

“Concentrate!" For all we know, you were found by locals lying down on Winsor Boulevard down, the only thing we found on you was a wallet with no real ID on it”. 

“Who found me”, I questioned.

“The local sheriff.”, He answered.

He handed me the black leather wallet my dad gave me for present once. Flashbacks of my dream last night started to strike my head as I slowly recall things from before. The dream was terrible, horrifying actually. It consisted of my father torturing both my mom and my sister to death. Then he dragged them across a long farm field and my sister dropped her teddy bear. My dad murdered both of them except for me. Was it because I’m special? Trying to picture a dream is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

The next morning came by through the blink of an eye. I opened my black leather wallet only to find thirteen dollars in cash, my library card and a ripped piece of paper with an address written:

              "Abilene, TX, United States"

Abilene just sounded too familiar for me; I know for sure I’ve heard this place. Before I could look further into this location, a knock from the door distracted me completely. When the door opened, it turned out to be a sheriff. Could he be the sheriff that found me, I thought to myself. After some questions, I learned that her name was Sheriff Hopkins and she was indeed the person that found me near the outskirts of Dallas.

“One more thing, Alan, you would need to come to the department for an investigation with the blood found on your shirt during the night of your accident”

“Investigation? What kind?” I questioned back.

“We need to identify whereabouts and perform a DNA test on the blood found on you.”

Things got more and more confusing as her words went on and so I asked her if she could help me find my way back home before the DNA test. Surprisingly, she exhaled and I followed her to the police car parked outside the hospital, “Parkland Memorial Hospital.” During the car ride I told her to take me to the place where she found me.  Just maybe, there will there be some hints on my finding my home. As I look over the window of the car, I remembered that I lived in barn and worked as a farm boy for my dad.

“Do you live with your family?” the detective inquired.
           
“ Yes mam, I have a family of four, my dad, my mom, my sister, and me.”

The detective looked at me blankly for a second and continued driving. I could tell by the look at her face that she was about to burst out into a laugh, but she held it in. When we arrived at Winsor Boulevard, she pointed out the alley in which I was found in. Searching for evidence, I scattered around the whole place like a rat trying to find dinner in a garbage bin. There was absolutely nothing that’s brings me back any memory. After an hour of clueless search, I asked Hopkins if she knew where all the old barns were in Dallas. I could tell by the looks of her face that she was quite annoyed by my requests, but she assisted me any way.  Again, we went on a trip to find my family.

Time drifted fast as it seemed to me that we are already reached the countryside within minutes from Winsor Boulevard. Is time getting faster, or am I actually going crazy? I viewed down the window of the car again. This time, I could see fields and fields of barn and suddenly, a flashback hit me. 

“Turn left and stay by the right side, I pretty sure it’s the red barn”

When we dropped by the barn; we entered straight towards the little house beside it. Inside the house was a completely disastrous setting of broken furniture, and the disgusting smell of blood. The sheriff was completely shocked and told me to stay out here, as she needed to call for an emergency backup. Out of my conscious sense , I walked out of the house into a grass field where I spotted that bloody teddy bear which my sister held in my dream. I rushed down towards the teddy bear to found a note lying next to it.

           " Dear Diary,
                       
                        Daddy beat mommy again because of me. I hate getting blamed for my existence.

            - Amy Jones"

Tears fell out of my eye as I read the note. I was never dreaming after all.  My father did kill my mother and sister. I walked backed into the house where sheriff Hopkins sat down and stared at our family photo.  I could tell by the by the look of her eyes that she feared me. However, before she even had a chance to touch her belt, I grabbed a rake and smashed her skull right open. She dropped down into the ground like a weak insect with blood spilling all over the floor. When I dragged her body across the field, the noise of siren came roaring closer and closer. I knew there wasn’t much time left before they will catch on with me. I hurried back into the house; locked every door I could found. Sitting down on the dinner table, I read a bill on the table:

                                               
"Abilene Institute
           
September 1st 1978

Patient Name: Samuel Jones
Patient Number: 54912324
Emergency Contacts: Emma Jones

Spouse: Emma Jones
Children(s): Amy Jonese

Medical Reason:  Dissociative Identity Disorder"

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Love Poem

Epiphany Of Love

Love is the world's most beautiful mystery.
Striking us with sudden joy of happiness and belonging.
The creation is not through one's time or effort, but destiny.

Love in a family is what brings people together.
Caring from our loved ones gives us the willpower to continue on.
The laughter and memories shatters through one's entire life.

Love in an activity is what makes us unique.
Defining our life with a purpose and talent to fulfill.
The result of doing what you love to do regardless of other opinions.

Love to me is a journey.
 Perfecting my life with the sense of joy, care and support.
The feeling of being loved is what kept me standing.